!!> Reading ➶ Hoje Preferia Não Me Ter Encontrado ➮ Author Herta Müller – Varanus.us

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!!> Reading ➶ Hoje Preferia Não Me Ter Encontrado ➮ Author Herta Müller – Varanus.us
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  • Hoje Preferia Não Me Ter Encontrado
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  • 15 October 2017
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  1. says:

    When I finally finished this remarkable work, my mind flashed back, for some obscure reason to my early twenties such exciting years when I loved a man, a cat and a book Life, of course, has to develop and move on I lost the man our lives were taking different directions , Sylvie died in quarantine but my magnificent book was and still remains with me the Alexandria Quartet by Lawrence Durrell I ve tried many times to write an account on why this book has had, and still continues to hav When I finally finished this remarkable work, my mind flashed back, for some obscure reason to my early twenties such exciting years when I loved a man, a cat and a book Life, of course, has to develop and move on I lost the man our lives were taking different directions , Sylvie died in quarantine but my magnificent book was and still remains with me the Alexandria Quartet by Lawrence Durrell I ve tried many times to write an account on why this book has had, and still continues to have, such a dramatic effect on me and I ve always failed That is a twentieth century masterpiece I ve now come across the same problem with The Appointment I have so much to say but I m having distinct difficulties in trying to achieve this I also wish to succeed because I want everyone possible to become aware of this book and read it.But I digress and so back to Herta M ller This is such an incredible woman and I really don t know where to start which rather confuses me I ve certainly never been lost for words before and in fact I ve been criticized for being too verbose but then that s my personality and I m certainly not going to change now.What really did surprise me is that I stumbled across a writing style that I m only recently beginning to appreciate, thestream of consciousness monologue that James Joyce, Virginia Woolf, and Marcel Proust were early exponents of.The story is actually rather banal and there s not a plot as such as it is set on a single tram ride to our narrator s increasing appointments, actually interrogations with Major Albu She had made a simple mistake of wanting to escape from Nicolae Ceau escu s totalitarian regime in communist Romania Our unnamed narrator s crime a seamstress working in a clothing factory had been Putting handwritten notes in the back pockets of ten white linen suits being shipped to Italy that said, Marry me and signed with her name and address.Various other notes had been planted which our narrator denied but Major Albu was determined to extract the truth from her come what may.I cannot even begin to imagine what it must be like living under such conditions and in a way I can see why Ms M ller decided to leave the narrator unnamed Indirectly and in a contradictory way she is divorcing herself from the situation by living in anonymity Although the tram ride takes ninety minutes, her various observations and the internal monologue they spark cover the breadth of her life We learn about her past, her friends Lilli in particular and family, daily life and Romanian expropriation and other government officials, to name a few All this appears in the landscape of her thoughts and memories Although her stream of consciousness takes us to various places in time and space, there is a fairly diffuse sense of ennui and antipathy.This book is so powerfully written It is a veritable tour de force It can be depressing at times, but then bounces back with black humour and comedy interwoven with beautiful descriptions Betrayal and lies are also imbedded within the text but it was the attention to detail which particularly impressed me for example, the two wicker baskets to be found outside the bus her father drives Our narrator had realized that she has left her bag there and goes to look for it My eyes widened and I laughed at this mesmerizing description.I kept on rereading pages and thought how did the author manage such exquisite prose when she lived under a totalitarian regime Colours such as red and black are other powerful motifs symbolising death and showing how little life was valued in Romania at the time Under their muzzles Lilli lay red as a bed of poppies.And, Our nameless narrator fumbled in her bag and found a small package there It was a finger with a bluish black nail.Her second husband Paul s red Java motorbike It was such a shame that he was a drunkard but he did give our narrator happiness for the first couple of years.Amusing incidents stud the book, for example with melons but the part that really enthralled me was the New Year s Eve paraputch extended family according to her father in law when our narrator recalls the celebration in her father in law s house by her first marriageI ll never know exactly what paraputch means For me it sounds like a gang, because the family was so large and each member was shady in his own way. But when the celebrations get underway, it s sheer bedlam and I revelled in it, especially Anastasia and the lascivious widower and gardener Martin who fancied his chances with the guests The incident that had me on tenterhooks was when our narrator cannot get off the tram at the bus station, because of an incident and because she knows that she s going to be late for her appointment When she finally gets off at the next stop she starts running and finds herself in a road where I had to reread this section not only one but three times There were various interpretations here, well for me anyway, and the jury is still out on this.Another odd thing though was that there were no quotation marks or question marks throughout the book I wonder why our author did that.I was also taken with the fact that Paul and our narrator lived in a leaning tower This is a very powerful, dark and moving novel I can only describe it as depressing brilliance and I cannot recommend it highly enough Ms M ller justifiably deserves being a Nobel laureate Bravo, and bravo


  2. says:

    This is the second time that I ve struggled with a Herta M ller novel, the second one to leave me feeling cold and not exactly in the greatest of moods, but given the subject matter it s not surprising really Her narrative didn t fill me with much enthusiasm, and yet, some of her sentences really were quite striking They stood out ripe in a bowl of decaying fruit.The Appointment takes a bleak and circuitous route through Bucharest on a rickety old tram that seems to take an eternity to reach i This is the second time that I ve struggled with a Herta M ller novel, the second one to leave me feeling cold and not exactly in the greatest of moods, but given the subject matter it s not surprising really Her narrative didn t fill me with much enthusiasm, and yet, some of her sentences really were quite striking They stood out ripe in a bowl of decaying fruit.The Appointment takes a bleak and circuitous route through Bucharest on a rickety old tram that seems to take an eternity to reach its destination If you had been summoned for an interview with Ceausescu s secret police in the last years of the dictatorship the last thing you would want is to be late The narrator, a factory seamstress, has been caught sewing marriage proposals into the hems of suits bound for export, for which she gets charged with prostitution Throughout the novel, you get the impression that any other sort of existence would have been a lot better than life in this communist state, constantly being trapped by feelings of paranoia and dread.Romanian migr and Nobel recipient M ller, presents the surreal absurdity of life under Ceausescu, such as an interrogator greeting her well with a gentle wet kiss on the hand before hours of interrogation, and an unexplained, severed finger turning up in her handbag a warning or a threat Just who can you trust What bothered me is that it s never clear just how many times the woman has been summoned before, or whether she actually makes the final appointment The journey from A to B is certainly a torturous one, for us just as much as the narrator, dipping in and out of her life while she is on the tram, the novel shunts back and forth in time across her memories in a haphazard manner, as she contemplates a world in which happiness has no meaning.This is not a novel that rewards the reader in any way, but you do feel the isolation and numbness under Ceausescu rule The Appointment isa test of endurance than anything else You could argue that is precisely the point, given the duress and despair M ller seeks to capture, but with heavy doses, many a reader will be tuned out before it s conclusion.2.5 stars


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    The Appointment is about life in Nicolae Ceau escu s communist Romania What a simultaneously sinister and banal place The mind won t absorb it The novel is in every sense a dystopia Only in this case it happens not to be an SF fantasy but based on 20th century events Seemingly without effort, Herta M ller shows us the utter self defeating nature of police states, their inefficiency, rotten core, bankrupt ideology, and doomed future.Its narrative line is elliptical It has been written in a The Appointment is about life in Nicolae Ceau escu s communist Romania What a simultaneously sinister and banal place The mind won t absorb it The novel is in every sense a dystopia Only in this case it happens not to be an SF fantasy but based on 20th century events Seemingly without effort, Herta M ller shows us the utter self defeating nature of police states, their inefficiency, rotten core, bankrupt ideology, and doomed future.Its narrative line is elliptical It has been written in a rich though understated style with a subtle patterning of motifs throughout It is story distilled to its essentials I suppose it might be called muscular were its anatomy not so delicately wrought It is not chic lit It is highly readable literary fiction, not at all cryptic, and in the end emotionally shattering The Appointment has a fragmented narrative line It consists of an interbraiding, if you will, of nine or ten related stories It is not a collection of linked stories Not at all It is a novel First there is the core story of our unnamed female narrator as she takes one particular streetcar journey to an interrogation with Major Albu, her tormentor in the secret police Both city and narrator are unnamed, as are the state s leader and its form of government One senses M ller wants nothing to do with politics Around this core of the streetcar trip other stories are intertwined These include the life and death of the beautiful Lilli and her elderly lover the story of our narrator s involvement with a co worker, Nelu, whom she fucks out of sheer boredom during a grim business trip and will thereafter have nothing to do with and the story of how she meets Paul, her second husband.Early on she does something very silly, something that would be laughable in any other context, but which the authorities consider treasonous She writes her name and address on slips of paper along with an offer of marriage and inserts these letters in a bottle into the pockets of garments she knows will be shipped to men s stores in Italy Needless to say, the slips are found before shipping and she is denounced by the rejected Nelu Henceforth, she must endure periodic interrogations by the creepy Major Albu at state security, who intentionally slobbers all over her hand when kissing it This is the perfect metaphor for Power s attitude to long tradition, especially civility to women Albu is scary but over the course of the novel we come to see how impotent he is Moreover, we come to know what the state fears its dissolution by unknown means A fate it was to undergo when the democratic movement swept Eastern Europe in 1989 One of the highlights of that period, in my view, is the videotaped execution of the old tyrant Ceau escu and his termagant wife for crimes against the people See YouTube for video The state s involvement in the minutiae of its citizens s lives never fails to astound the reader But why It seems to me it would be like sending your innocuous kid sister in for questioning Why do it Of what possible intelligence value can there be in interrogating a young woman who works in a button factory It is done solely in the name of ideological conformity The people of this unnamed state have nothing to be proud of They are essentially prisoners in their own country Lilli is shot while trying to cross the border Her fate becomes hortatory propaganda There is no cultural life to speak of, no artistic expression Romania under Ceau escu makes Orwell s 1984 look like a fun day spent at Six Flags Great Adventure.Very striking is the consistent preference throughout of young women for old men Young men are no, not those on whom all hopes and dreams for the future are placed but a thoroughly disenfranchised lot, without opportunity, almost invisible Paul is the group s lone representative for the duration of the book, except for one scene set in an Officers Club Here the emasculated young men sit at tables ogling Lilli and her old man and tossing matchheads at them Right or wrong, I saw the matchheads as symbols of forestalled ignition, quashed passion.The narrator s Inexplicable first marriage is to the son of the Perfumed Commissar, once head of state expropriation, who not only took every scrap of property her grandparents owned, but then sent them to a hellish camp, a gulag essentially, where the grandmother promptly died, reduced to geophagy.This is a very powerful, very dark novel I recommended it highly However, if you are new to Herta M ller s work I would advise you to start with the evenremarkable In the Land of Green Plums


  4. says:

    The heroine of this novel lives her life waiting She is a seamstress in a Romanian factory making fine men s overcoats for export to Italy She is so desperate for escape from her pointless life that she inserts notes saying Marry Me, with her name and address, into the linings of the coats She has a live in male friend who spends all of his time and most of her money drinking the day away There is no future here it slike maintaining a big dog and having the expense that goes with i The heroine of this novel lives her life waiting She is a seamstress in a Romanian factory making fine men s overcoats for export to Italy She is so desperate for escape from her pointless life that she inserts notes saying Marry Me, with her name and address, into the linings of the coats She has a live in male friend who spends all of his time and most of her money drinking the day away There is no future here it slike maintaining a big dog and having the expense that goes with it.This is Eastern Europe before the fall of the Berlin Wall So our heroine is in trouble again for those notes It s happened before Now she could lose her job or even be imprisoned She s been summoned onceto the inspector s office thus the book s title The inspector is now taking a personal interest in her case that is, he is taking a personal interest in her Like other novels of Eastern Europe under Communism, the work is filled with angst and anomie Waiting Waiting for something.We are treated to some great prose I developed a yearning for being alone, unkempt, untended later, this disappeared and then showed up again in my mother The tap water tasted of chlorine, and the chlorine tasted of the sleep I wasn t getting His face froze up Then his eyeballs glistened and turned into little squares Out shot his arm, and he slapped me He was better at that then he was at making coffee, tying shoelaces, or sharpening pencils Herta Muller won the Nobel Prize for Literature in 2009


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    There is a shocking matter of factness in the voice addressing to the readers of this book Belonging to the female character in the center of the story, it weaves the narration by adding together episodes full of horror from a past under communism her grandmother s death, her father s adultery, her father in law s acts of violence, Lilli s sexual misbehavior and death , details regarding a present ride by tram to the police office for interrogations and random descriptions of objects.How is it There is a shocking matter of factness in the voice addressing to the readers of this book Belonging to the female character in the center of the story, it weaves the narration by adding together episodes full of horror from a past under communism her grandmother s death, her father s adultery, her father in law s acts of violence, Lilli s sexual misbehavior and death , details regarding a present ride by tram to the police office for interrogations and random descriptions of objects.How is it to feel that everything surrounding you is spying on you Innanimate objects get personified around and these, together with people surrounding you among whom most act crazy if they are not crazy already seem to take part in a conspiratory whirlpool which has in the center your life Everything becomes part of this cycle and the repetition and dullness of everyday events scare the hell out of you Everything seems to be an enemy, everyone and everything seem to be plotting against you, even the lifeless objects in their silence seem to whisper against you Everything suggests the feeling that someone is watching you and is going to inform on you to the secret police under the Romanian communist regime led by Ceausescu Stricken with constant fear and with the feeling that senselessness is easier to handle than the aimlessness of the everyday events, the main character constantly gives an answer to the question pointed above which Herta Muller seems to make a whole theme out of in this book How is it to feel that everything surrounding you is spying on you The sessions of interrogations and her fear of being summoned become the major events of her present summing up a centerfold around which her whole life revolves.In such an atmosphere, it becomes impossible to grasp who you are any and what your principles really areit s easy to talk about bad years if they are past But when you have to say right who you are at this very moment, it s hard to getout than an uneasy silenceEverybody informs on everybody and trust becomes a liability trusting means getting betrayed eventually The past brings up its examples of this statement people who should be trusted in life, in general, are actually great deceivers in the main character s life her father, her step father and the ones that she actually trusts have however, an uncertain status I can only interpret the open ending taking this last phrase into account everything is uncertain is Paul an enemy or a friend, does he love her or does he mislead her, does he tell her the truth or everything regarding him is a big lie and the character doesn t know whom she can trust anyThe trick is not to go madBut how can you keep your mind in its right place when you are estranged in a world where values are fighting to convey a meaning that is totally opposite to the main one and everyone seems to consider this normal How are you to fight with mad people in a world where everybody is mad and you are the only one who is different The result is that in such a world you begin to become suspicious of everyone and value things which in normal societies you would take for granted the fact that your body is whole and that all its parts are functional, that you have all the fingers, for instance, and that you can use themEver since I found the parcel wrapped like candy in my bag she talks about a human finger she found in her bag after one of the sessions of interrogation , I use my forefinger when she is making sketches , crooking and twisting it to follow the contours I didn t check whether the severed finger could be bent This book is splendid full of meanings and conveying ideas without pointing them out I relished its phrases and I read the most striking ones twice or eventimes They kept me pondering about the obscurity of communism and on how the terror turned people into beasts They made me wonder if I had any right to blame nowadays people for still wearing their scars of the communism as they still do and this question will keep me wondering for quite a while On another note, I really enjoyed the review from the link below, although I don t agree with the ending


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    Everything happened in a twinkling, the time it takes for one person to assault another. M ller s Nobel Prize speech is transcribed at the end of this edition, a bonus the cover did not hint at that other editions could learn from, and among other thought provoking paragraphs was her probing the susceptibility of engineers and the like to making homunculi out of their creations I already knew a number of beautiful words having to do with lubricated hydraulic machine parts DOVETAIL, GOOSENEC Everything happened in a twinkling, the time it takes for one person to assault another. M ller s Nobel Prize speech is transcribed at the end of this edition, a bonus the cover did not hint at that other editions could learn from, and among other thought provoking paragraphs was her probing the susceptibility of engineers and the like to making homunculi out of their creations I already knew a number of beautiful words having to do with lubricated hydraulic machine parts DOVETAIL, GOOSENECK, ACORN NUTS, and EYEBOLTS, she says, and so I left off characterizing her plot structure as the shuttering swift sidings of looms and thought of maelstroms instead Capturing the linear side of things is all very well, but we are no Arachne in our weaving and wiggling our way out of the unyielding desire of the eye You feel fine because you ve forgotten what that means for other people. The Wiki page for the author already rhapsodized on about Kafka, so I ll save us both some ethos and think instead on past and future If you let it, the narrative will explain all that needs be expounded, letting even a novice in Romanian tinged literature such as myself into its endless bowels When the final page is turned, you ll have the comfort of your narrator s closure, for you ll know exactly how she came to be here and where she has utmost need to go Whether you accept the lines drawn by death and madness by that point is another matter entirely On the way I thought How bizarre that something so beautiful could be up in the sky, with no law down here on earth forbidding people to look at it. The matter of her being a woman may be a turnoff to some, for the cruelty aimed so casually and frequently at female bodies is the same regardless of political leanings, souring those feel good leavings that horror stories of Communism inevitably leave on the democratically inclined It s not nearly as difficult as Morrison and Jelinek, but it is said, and unlike the others dwells on many a tale of daughters fucking fathers note the order and implicated position and other sundry tales of female lust, so maybe there is something to be said about that Communism business in conjunction with the patriarchy Or not, but whether twas meaning or null, it was worth noting, for superstitious warding off harm before the next appointment share with a sought out sex an ultimate need for control First look left and then look right, son, to see if a car s coming That s important when you re crossing a street but it s a dangerous way to think. Hell hath no fury like a man offended


  7. says:

    4,5 stars, but taking into account my mental state in the last months, it surely deserves being rounded up to 5 M ller mixes present and past throughout the whole book and manages to get it superbly done, never sounding pretentious or false, and meanwhile tells some pretty good stories from Communist Romania.


  8. says:

    This is certainly autobiographical at least in regard to the interrogations part Herta was in fact interrogated while living in Romania, under CeausescuThis is the daily grim and perceptive description of a woman s life her apprehension facing the interrogations She s a factory worker During her first marriage while husband was at the military service she recalls she escaped home and went to the mountains Carpatos mountains with conservatory finalists she saw a frozen lake and This is certainly autobiographical at least in regard to the interrogations part Herta was in fact interrogated while living in Romania, under CeausescuThis is the daily grim and perceptive description of a woman s life her apprehension facing the interrogations She s a factory worker During her first marriage while husband was at the military service she recalls she escaped home and went to the mountains Carpatos mountains with conservatory finalists she saw a frozen lake and crosses of the dead her peers picked up stones for healing but she picked a stone in the form of child s foot she still keeps it She s been summoned to an interrogation at 10 00 a.m., sharp interrogations are a torment they are so long one feels lost Today I may be conducted to a prison cell, escorted by Albu major Albu s head stinks French perfume Avril.In her dark bedroom she wonders how to kill time she cannot sleep it s easier to think about something luminous, snow She names her blouses Her second husband Paul is a drunken man I drink because it tastes good She wonders you think with your tongue People at that time drank a lot The factory worker dedicates some analysis to the drinking habit lots of people drinking Two Plums brand There are so many plum trees Herta M ller belonged to the German minority living in Romania where she was born 1953 She had a bad experience under the dictator of Romania she was under constant interrogation by the Securitate the Romanian secret services Her own father didn t speak about once belonging to the German SS that was a taboo theme Her mother went to a labor camp in the Soviet Union The writer remembers that people starved to death.and she got physically disgusted.Herta studied German literature.In another book of Herta Nadirs she depicts the dreadful life of a small village back in Romania And then freedom in 1987 she moved to West Berlin she was amazed, even shocked everything colorful she wrote Travel in one leg , the novel approaching this transition At 56 years of age she received the Nobel Prize of literature Her own terrible experience made her one sharp political analyst see her article on Liao Yiwu http www.signandsight.com features


  9. says:

    Apparently I m compelled to re read this after finishing it both to savor the writing, and to see how the author built this story to its chilling end Meant to just go back and leaf through the beginning, to see where she planted various seeds and follow a thread or two, but this book is meant for serious enjoyment so here I go again.The setting is a factory town under the thumb of communist tyranny Our heroine has been summoned repeatedly to an appointment with the authorities to explain h Apparently I m compelled to re read this after finishing it both to savor the writing, and to see how the author built this story to its chilling end Meant to just go back and leaf through the beginning, to see where she planted various seeds and follow a thread or two, but this book is meant for serious enjoyment so here I go again.The setting is a factory town under the thumb of communist tyranny Our heroine has been summoned repeatedly to an appointment with the authorities to explain herself We travel with her on the bus, we work with her in the factory, we join her domestic life with her second and first husbandwe hope for the best, we affirm the human spirit, and yet .Do not go by the jacket cover s blurb Do not wait for her to be distracted on the bus and miss her bus stop Fabulous translation A wonderful example of witness literature


  10. says:

    A beautifully crafted book, so subtle in its manipulation of the reader, in the quiet exposition of terror During the course of a morning tram ride to an appointment with her Major her interogator with the secret police, presumably the Departamentul Securit ii Statului our un named narrator reflects on the course of her life which lead to this particular point in time While all the specifics of time and place are unannounced, anyone familiar with Herta M ller s personal history will recog A beautifully crafted book, so subtle in its manipulation of the reader, in the quiet exposition of terror During the course of a morning tram ride to an appointment with her Major her interogator with the secret police, presumably the Departamentul Securit ii Statului our un named narrator reflects on the course of her life which lead to this particular point in time While all the specifics of time and place are unannounced, anyone familiar with Herta M ller s personal history will recognise the Swabian minority in the Romania of Ceau escu, that landscape of the dispossessed as the Nobel committee rendered it.The original title, Heute w r ich mir lieber nicht begegnet, translates as I wouldn t want to meet myself like this it s intriguingly apt though certainly not commercial in the States

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